One of the few advantages of having CF is that you get the chance to hang out with really smart people a lot. One of them shared with me that when her daughter went to kindergarten, she learned to quilt. I thought that was a really great idea but wasn't sure where to begin. So, this week, I visited the quilting circle at my church. One of my friends is a regular and assured me that you only needed to know how to tie a knot. When I explained that I was a kindergarten mom without a home, there was a collective sigh in the room and they took me in.
One of the greatest prayers in action is sometimes just your presence. I have the opportunity to help my grandparents on both sides later this week and early next week. It comes with a lot of change but it is a great gift to be able to be there. We are hoping for some good news and a smooth transition. While I don't know how much help I can offer, I am really good at being present. I know first hand the gift of having someone who adores you present when you are feeling a little nervous.
Last night, my darling husband joined me for the kindergarten parent night. The thought crossed my mind to bolt from the room and declare that we aren't ready. Well, that wouldn't really be true. My daughter is very much ready. It is her mom who is having a little trouble. She is fond of telling me that it is okay because she will play with me after school. I know it won't stay that way forever so I am trying to live it up and spend a little more time playing Barbies and making crafts.
So, this week, I encourage you to be present. Hang out with the people who adore you and bask in a little bit of sunshine. On that note, I need to get ready for school.
Blessings,
Cindy
Friday, September 14, 2012
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Blink
So, have you ever been out and about doing what you normally do when you blink and things change? I was out running errands this weekend and checking things off my list. I was feeling pretty accomplished about the whole matter which speaks to my type A personality. I was heading for the grocery store when I coughed and then coughed some more. That was it. I noticed my typical junk which is a sign of infection was complete with blood. The first time was alarming enough. Then, it happened again. I asked about this very scenario a few months back and was told that the amount matters. A little might be typical of a blood vessel that burst. A lot is reason to call in the big guns.
While I was somewhere in the middle, I gave up on my adventure to the grocery store and headed for home. My friend dropped off a book that she had finished for me last week. It was rather timely as I took that is a sign that I should lay low. Well, it wasn't really sign as much as it was a direction guided by my husband. So, that is how I spent most of yesterday and today.
This morning, I spent at the dentist. The hygenist was telling me how her son is in my daughter's class and he was home with a fever on Friday. She had to work on Monday so he went back to school. So, it begins. While it is really hot today, the germs of fall seem to be just around the corner.
The thing about CF is that sometimes you push it into the back of your mind. Then, when you are going about your life, it reminds you that things aren't quite that simple. So, you pack it in. A trip to the grocery after the first treatment, lunch and another treatment, an outing to the library to meet your friends before the last treatment. And, you remember that you shouldn't complain about the schedule. You should just keep on day in and day out because you only need to blink before everything changes.
So, a little more sleep, some extra nebs, and holding out before we call in the big guns. After all, it could be nothing. That would be ideal. Or, it might be denial.
Blessings,
Cindy
While I was somewhere in the middle, I gave up on my adventure to the grocery store and headed for home. My friend dropped off a book that she had finished for me last week. It was rather timely as I took that is a sign that I should lay low. Well, it wasn't really sign as much as it was a direction guided by my husband. So, that is how I spent most of yesterday and today.
This morning, I spent at the dentist. The hygenist was telling me how her son is in my daughter's class and he was home with a fever on Friday. She had to work on Monday so he went back to school. So, it begins. While it is really hot today, the germs of fall seem to be just around the corner.
The thing about CF is that sometimes you push it into the back of your mind. Then, when you are going about your life, it reminds you that things aren't quite that simple. So, you pack it in. A trip to the grocery after the first treatment, lunch and another treatment, an outing to the library to meet your friends before the last treatment. And, you remember that you shouldn't complain about the schedule. You should just keep on day in and day out because you only need to blink before everything changes.
So, a little more sleep, some extra nebs, and holding out before we call in the big guns. After all, it could be nothing. That would be ideal. Or, it might be denial.
Blessings,
Cindy
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Slow Flow
The first day of kindergarten has come and gone again. I found solace in my friend's couch who reminded me that our children are in school every day. I was apparently in denial about the whole deal. My daughter did really well until it came time for my husband and I to leave her class. The whole matter is a little hard on the heart and my generous husband drove my her to school for days two and three. We haven't managed to brave the bus yet and don't plan to anytime soon. After all, we get 23 more minutes of sleep which in our lives makes a big difference.
I have kept myself busy reorganizing things that likely don't really need to be organized. I am waiting on the delivery of my new desk which I have great aspirations about the changes that a simple piece of furniture can make in one woman's life. I have also managed to find my way back to the gym. For weeks, I have had two daily goals and usually one or the other gets done but rarely both. Yesterday, I crossed both of them off for the first time and I have to say it felt really good.
I am fortunate to have friends in life to tell me how it really is when I need a little help getting over the hill. My wise friend counseled me that I really needed to just pull myself up by the boot straps. She said it with love but the basic message was fake until you make it. I have already had comments from people noticing some slight differences in my day to day happenings.
A few weeks ago, I had the chance to talk with my friend who was really blue. She had good reason to be. Sometimes I think that when you are feeling that way, it is hard to find your way out by yourself. I hope that I might have helped a little and I am very thankful for the friend who helped me realize it might help to do a few things different.
Of course, I am still working on my ability to say no. I think what is more important is to say yes to the right things. What do you really need to do today? Of course, the answer is different for everyone. I hope the women in my life will look at each other and realize that we need to support one another in whatever quest that might be for each of us. So, if you need to say no today, just say it. People will learn that you say yes to the really important things and that will make all the difference.
Until then, you can find me trying to find my groove at slow flow yoga.
Blessings,
Cindy
I have kept myself busy reorganizing things that likely don't really need to be organized. I am waiting on the delivery of my new desk which I have great aspirations about the changes that a simple piece of furniture can make in one woman's life. I have also managed to find my way back to the gym. For weeks, I have had two daily goals and usually one or the other gets done but rarely both. Yesterday, I crossed both of them off for the first time and I have to say it felt really good.
I am fortunate to have friends in life to tell me how it really is when I need a little help getting over the hill. My wise friend counseled me that I really needed to just pull myself up by the boot straps. She said it with love but the basic message was fake until you make it. I have already had comments from people noticing some slight differences in my day to day happenings.
A few weeks ago, I had the chance to talk with my friend who was really blue. She had good reason to be. Sometimes I think that when you are feeling that way, it is hard to find your way out by yourself. I hope that I might have helped a little and I am very thankful for the friend who helped me realize it might help to do a few things different.
Of course, I am still working on my ability to say no. I think what is more important is to say yes to the right things. What do you really need to do today? Of course, the answer is different for everyone. I hope the women in my life will look at each other and realize that we need to support one another in whatever quest that might be for each of us. So, if you need to say no today, just say it. People will learn that you say yes to the really important things and that will make all the difference.
Until then, you can find me trying to find my groove at slow flow yoga.
Blessings,
Cindy
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